Monday, 15 September 2008

Back To The Front

I felt good yesterday. I was thinking about a girl. I was feeling better. Then I fell asleep.
I don't quite remember where the dream took place. It kept changing; one minute it was a pub, then it was a Diner. At first, in the pub, I was with my ex. We were kissing and hugging, which was reminiscent of a time I saw her before I left for London. We were getting back together in the dream. Of course I didn't realise this was a dream, so I was super happy. Anyway, the rest of the dream isn't important. I woke up.
Now I feel like I'm back to the fucking start. How the hell am I supposed to get over this if my own sub-concsience can't even forget about her?
I don't usually believe in dream interpretations, but I looked mine up anyway:

"To dream about your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend or ex-husband/wife or that you and your ex got back together again, suggests that something or someone in your current life that is bringing out similar feelings you felt during the relationship with your ex. The dream may be a way of alerting you to the same or similar behavior in a current relationship. What you learn from that previous relationship may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistake. Alternatively, past lovers often highlight the positive experiences you had with that person. "

Most of that doesn't seem to apply. I had mentioned that I was thinking about a girl, earlier. However, sometimes I feel like I'm forcing myself to think about her in an attempt to forget my ex, because when I really think about, I have no feelings for her. I really wish I did, but I don't.
I guess the last sentence makes some sense. We had some amazing times, and every time I talk to another girl, I always try to imagine having the same experiences with them but it never works.
I've never been so confused. I should really stop talking about this so much. Ok. Finish.

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