So my emotional meter has been flicking back and forth for a while now, and in the past day or two I've felt two amazing feelings at the same time. Anger, in all it's blissful extremity, makes me feel happy with myself. I need a healthy dose of anger to make me feel better. I'm angry. Who the recipient of this anger is, is a murky question. Obviously these feelings have stemmed from the whole break up. I'm angry for having lost someone who was so close to me, angry that she's with other people, seeing them in ways that she used to see me. I'm angry because I'm literally forcing myself not to speak to her, when it's all I want to do, and I'm angry that she herself isn't speaking to me.
What is so strange is that it makes me want to laugh. It's actually making me feel better, because I'm no longer sad. I'm angry. Sadness has taken it's seat once more and happiness is getting it's chance to take the stage, backing up the anger.
I'm sure it's all to do the multitude of people I've met recently, and one in particular who I'm really excited about. There'll be more on that later I'm sure.
For now, the shit battery on my laptop has 5% remaining and I'm not arsed looking for the charger.
See yis.
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