Ugh......this sucks. I've been trying so hard to get over my ex-girlfriend, but everything reminds me of her. I keep hearing her favourite bands everywhere, seeing her favourite films and anything that meant something to both of us keeps popping up somewhere. All my passwords for things have something to do with her. I know I should change them but that's such a pain in the hole.
She's doing fine, I think. Out having fun with new friends, already meeting new guys and I'm stuck. I can't stop thinking about her, as much as I try. Everything I write on sites like Bebo and MySpace are just cries, that I'm hoping she will hear. I'm even hoping right now that she reads this. I'v put up links everywhere, hoping she looks.
I'm totally selfish. Here she is getting on with her life, making the best of what was a bad situation, and all I want is for her to want me.
I can't imagine having another relationship anything like the one we had. It was fun, happy, exciting, sexy, comfortable and....everything else. She saved me. I could have ended up a depressive recluse and at one point came very close, but she saved me.
I know eventually I will get over this. I will find someone else and be happy, like her. I'll never forgive myself, however, for what I've thrown away and potentially destroyed forever. It could have been so much more than what it was, everything that the two of us could ever want.
It would have been fun.
It would have been happy.
It would have been exciting.
It would have been sexy.
It would have been comfortable.
It would have been.
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It's never easy at first. I've been in the exact same situation, more than once.
It's a rough time, but it does get better.
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