Excitable probabilities.

I'm going on a 'date' tomorrow! I haven't been on one in over two years, and that was my first date with my ex. We were already going out and all haha. I'm excited though. A bit nervous aswell, because I'm getting all those anxious thoughts like 'What if I can't think of anything to say' or 'What if she doesn't actually like me' blah de blah. I'm sure it'll be fine though. The only thing is that I'm really not in the place for a relationship right now. I still think about my ex a bit. I don't think I'm in love with her anymore, but I still miss her. It still hurts to think of her. I hope she understands this and doesn't hate me or something.
Anyway, I have no idea what we're doing. She's said she'll show me around London and then I have to show her around Kingston and Dublin, because she'll be in Dublin in November while I'm there too!! That's gonna be a lot of fun. I just want to have some fun right now, and she seems like a lot of fun. She's amazing, actually. Intelligent, funny and gorgeous. When I first met her in a bar in London, it was dark and I was drunk, so I can't picture her in my mind. I do remember thinking that she was really pretty though, and everyone else who was with me that night has said she's 'hot' or 'fit as chips, mate'. So I'm really happy with this.

I'll let you know.